I didn’t really have any problem with my pregnant body. I knew it was fleeting and I was happy to be growing my baby. The first few weeks after giving birth I was just so amazed at how “thin” I felt after losing my baby belly, that I didn’t even really think about my size. I actually dropped the 30 pounds I had gained in about 2-3 weeks naturally.
Once I started to forget about my pregnant body and only kept looking at my post pregnancy body, I could feel a shift in my mind. Even though I pride myself in having a good self image, I do still sometimes have to fight extra hard to stay positive. I found myself starting to get into a negative viewpoint of myself. Not being able to exercise or make healthy meals because I was so busy with a new baby made this especially hard.
Even though I am aware of the easiness to fall into the pit of a negative view point, I still had those negative thoughts. I realized how much negativity is ingrained in my brain. It is one thing to be a logical, intellectual adult. It is another to be in an emotional thought pattern.
These thoughts made me realize that I will always be fighting this body image fight. No matter if it is having a baby, having loss, life changes, etc. There will always be something put in my way to try and make me feel a certain way. Even at my smallest I had these thoughts. It all comes down to keep fighting the fight and staying strong.