It takes more than a heartbeat to get me…”
I’ve always had a hard time letting people in. Usually, it takes a while for me to warm up and even then only so far. Partly from bad past experiences, partly from who I am and how I was born. Through the years it has been rare for me to find people who ‘get’ me. I always have felt somewhat misunderstood and viewed while growing up and even still today. An onlooker peering into another world that I’m not quite a part of…
There are those even rarer instances of letting someone even more intimately and farther into my life, thinking “this is finally someone who gets me and will be there for me,” only to end up sorely disappointed and hurt.
It’s hard to be vulnerable, because each and every time I let someone new in, it brings the good and the bad. I know that is part of life and part of living. I guess I have to find a balance in some way. A way to not get hurt so easily… A way to figure out what is worth it and what is not…
